joan

wants a change.

2009-08-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

MOVED OVER TO joanseow.onsugar.com RELINK PEOPLE!

EDIT!

i was thinking of changing blog. am tired of blogspot. ideas? (:

but there isnt many others to choose from anws. hahha.

to rely on you.

2009-08-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

i cant believe that im feeling so stress about tomorrow's paper. it's the last paper & im really not trying my best to concentrate on studying. yes, i did study through the whole lecture book already. but how well i did study i wont know till tomorrow when im done with my paper. the whole feeling sucks. arghhhhhhhhhh!

eh eh.

2009-08-26T00:49:00.000-07:00

psychology paper really drained out all my brain cells today. :I it was 80 mcqs & 4 saqs. & by the time i was half done, i felt like leaving the examination hall. cos my mind was really tired & nothing seemed to work. ): & i really think that i cant study outside the examination hall. i did just now & even before i entered the examination hall, i forgot like three quarters of what i want to write already. it's that bad. ):

just want to say that it was nice having louis waiting for me to reach to meet him after his paper & for staying back all the way to 6pm to wait for my exam to finish & to accompany me to study. it's really sweet. plus walking home with me. thank you! you never fail to be there. <3

hai. im really so so tired of studying for exams. cant wait for friday when i leave the examination hall. i need to do well! go joan!

there's nothing else i can say.

2009-08-21T00:49:00.000-07:00

i feel so tired. think im going to give myself a break from studying & really start intensive studying tomorrow. go joan! (:

another thing. im so fed up with drivers whom give us those stares & those rude driving experience when louis drives. today was the worst! people not giving way & guy staring at us when we were making our way out of the school carpark. like what, just because you have a car you can stare at us. stupid people. he still need to rely on his parents to get for him the car also what. so why be bothered to look down on people, stupid & pampered kid. & for cars who doesn give way, please. one day you'll end up getting accident for your irresponsibe behaviour. hai! people.

EDIT.

thursday
i feel really blessed even thou it's the start of my exams. louis accompanied me to school & we were early! i was so scared that i'll be late for exam as it starts at 9am that i woke up at 5am, then 6am, 6.30am, then 6.45am then i told myself, enough of sleeping & i got up & got ready for school when im suppose to get up at 7am. then, i got ready within 20 minutes when usually i take 30 minutes without tying my hair. tying hair takes another 5 minutes. but i think i was too worried & scared that i'll be late, so my movements was much faster. haha! thank you baby for arriving on time, for meeting me so early, & for getting up early just for me. thank you for waiting for me to finish exam & for studying with me after that. thank you for walking me home even thou i know you're super tired. thank you for everything. at least our walk home was a funny one. hahha! thou i felt that the paper earlier didnt go as expected, but i thank you Lord for louis. for he brightened my day. i love you baby.

friday
went to school earlier & studied with louis. (: glad that my paper went well! it was easier than i expected it to be. thank you Lord. 3 more papers next week & it'll be finally over! but the 3 papers ahead is not easy ones. sigh. ):

im feeling so weird now. i dont know why too. :/

it still tears me apart slowly.

2009-08-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

just read louis's sister's blog. it really tears my heart reading it. it totally remind me so much about my grandfather. the fact that i lost 2 grandfathers within 6 months. one whom i saw on christmas eve morning & had a heart attack on christmas day, & left us 2 days later. the other grandfather whom went for a heart operation on a friday, i saw him at his house the following sunday as the doctor allowed him to go home as he was well. admitted into hospital on monday morning & left us on friday morning. i remember his face, i remember how hard it was for him to breath. with the venterlater on his throat. his sunken face, his dried lips & mouth. how hard it was for him to even breath. rushed down to the hospital at 3am after receiving the call from hospital saying that there isnt much time left. family's decision to let my grandfather go slowly.

i still remember i was with my brother & cousin resting in the lounge when my brother went back to see my grandfather. my brother ran back telling us to faster go see my grandfather as his heart rate was dropping real fast. we ran, & my grandfather slowly left. we just stood around his bedside. watching him go away from us. i still remember the scene, how pale he looked. how each of us cried. how painful it was to really watch someone so close to you go just right infront of your eyes.

i remember telling myself how fortunate i was to have 3 grandfathers. 2 from both paternal & maternal side & one adopted grandfather. how lucky i was. i really felt lucky. but now all 3 are in heaven. well, i really miss you kong kong, ocean park kong kong & head road kong kong. hhahhah! funny names huh. cos when they call my house, & i say kong kong call, my family always get confuse which kong kong call. so i'll say either head road kong kong or ocean park. named after where they stayed!

it's really a painful memory & i still cry when i do think about it. but i know you're all in a better place than where we all are now. & always remember, i still love you all like how i always had. (:

2 MORE MONTHS TO THE BIG 3 YEARS! C:

2009-08-18T00:49:00.000-07:00

hee! i've exactly 2 more months to think of what to get for louis for our 3rd year. any ideas? (:

cant let the music stop, until i touch your hand.

2009-08-15T00:57:00.000-07:00

hello everyone! im done with my 4 weeks of attachment over at KKH! like finally! it's been a long 4 weeks, but an enjoyable one with lots of ups & downs. but overall, it was indeed a nice experience i'll say. (:

do pray with me for a nice clinical instructor over at changi during my 3 weeks of attachment over there from 31/8 till 18/9. (:

on wednesday, i woke up to an ultra super painful neck. it was painful & not suan. thank God that it's okay now. & caught up! with louis over at iluma after work. super sweet movie! (:

on thursday, i was on afternoon shift, i felt that time passed extremely slow. :I but it ended well. i felt blessed. & indeed "bless & be blessed." i pray for God's grace to be on their family. for they're good people. in simple, work was boring, but i felt blessed. :)

& again, i really thank G0d for bringing me through these 4 weeks. it's not been easy, but im proud to say that it's all over now. thank you Lord for your grace.

now is to chiong for my studies which exams begins on thursday. sigh. i want to do well! pray for me okay!

happy 44 singapore!

2009-08-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

(: headed out to walk rocky with louis & out for a national day dinner with louis after that. thank God for such an understanding grandmother like her. how i wish, like i always do that she's my mum instead of my grandmother. (: well, im still appreciating her as a grandmother. (:

tomorrow's a public holiday! i am going to

sleep
study bio. i must finish studying it by tomorrow!
prepare for my case study

i think thats all.

cant wait till wednesday when i get to watch a movie with louis. like finally. D: