Kidnap my heart.

it still tears me apart slowly.

Thursday, August 20, 200912:40 AM

just read louis's sister's blog. it really tears my heart reading it. it totally remind me so much about my grandfather. the fact that i lost 2 grandfathers within 6 months. one whom i saw on christmas eve morning & had a heart attack on christmas day, & left us 2 days later. the other grandfather whom went for a heart operation on a friday, i saw him at his house the following sunday as the doctor allowed him to go home as he was well. admitted into hospital on monday morning & left us on friday morning. i remember his face, i remember how hard it was for him to breath. with the venterlater on his throat. his sunken face, his dried lips & mouth. how hard it was for him to even breath. rushed down to the hospital at 3am after receiving the call from hospital saying that there isnt much time left. family's decision to let my grandfather go slowly.

i still remember i was with my brother & cousin resting in the lounge when my brother went back to see my grandfather. my brother ran back telling us to faster go see my grandfather as his heart rate was dropping real fast. we ran, & my grandfather slowly left. we just stood around his bedside. watching him go away from us. i still remember the scene, how pale he looked. how each of us cried. how painful it was to really watch someone so close to you go just right infront of your eyes.

i remember telling myself how fortunate i was to have 3 grandfathers. 2 from both paternal & maternal side & one adopted grandfather. how lucky i was. i really felt lucky. but now all 3 are in heaven. well, i really miss you kong kong, ocean park kong kong & head road kong kong. hhahhah! funny names huh. cos when they call my house, & i say kong kong call, my family always get confuse which kong kong call. so i'll say either head road kong kong or ocean park. named after where they stayed!

it's really a painful memory & i still cry when i do think about it. but i know you're all in a better place than where we all are now. & always remember, i still love you all like how i always had. (:

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